Why do I feel so blue?

Yesterday was my last day at work...well, we can't really call it a day because I had a dr's appointment that kept me from getting to the office until 10:30 so I just turned in my keys, did some hugging and slipped out the door.  I had already moved out of my office on Monday and was transitioning customers over to the temp help so really not much else left to do at that point.  I review the "Must Do" list with the gals to make sure audits were done, combos changed, ect then I was off.  They had treated me to a huge dinner the night before and started me a Pandora Bracelet with a kitty cat and a money bag....Too stinkin' cute!  I shed a few tears at the dinner but Friday was just fine. 

Mark and I spent the afternoon trying to figure out what to do with my car, gathering more electronic crap to move with us and finally ended the night in a free for all fight.  Why is it that we always lash out and hurt the one we love so much?  Is it because we know that they will love us in spite of what we said or what?  Anyway, it's just an emotional journey right now and in a few weeks when things have settled back down, we will have forgotten about the argument or at least he will.  If you asked him today if we'd ever had a fight in the 20 plus years that we've been together; he'd say no and mean it.  He tells people all the time that we've never fought and I ask him where the heck has he been living or hand me some of those good drugs buddy 'cause I remember some real dozzies! 

So back to the car thingies; mine is a lease that we're 1 1/2 into at this point and it just makes sense to turn it back in.  I mean why pay a car payment, taxes and insurance on a vehicle that we might use once every 6 months for a week.  It will cost us $2500 to turn it in but with a payment of $450, we'll recoup that it just a few months.  The problem is that I'll be without a vehicle for the last month that we live here.  No big deal, right?  I mean I can take Mark to work and keep the truck if I need it besides it will keep me focused on getting things in order before the move.  I have so much house stuff that I'd like to get done before we leave.  Nothing big just things like clean the windows, paint one of the garage doors to cover up where the air conditioner fiasco stained it 2 years ago, weed the flower beds really good, clean the kitchen cabinets inside and out, ect....my list keeps growing so being without a car will be a good thing.

We're going home to Arkansas next weekend then over to Germany for a 2 week trip so Mark can attend some meetings and I can hopefully find us somewhere to live.  I'm excited to go back over and look at housing because now we have a "move date".  The plan is we're going over the 2nd week in July but the really great news is that Mark now has an office so we can carry some stuff over and store it in his office until we make the move.  Yeah!  I was starting to feel overwhelmed with the whole 2 suitcases and 5 boxes maximum rule that he had laid out there....now I can see it happening if I get to take 5 boxes the first trip and 5 boxes the final trip.  I mean I have one whole box that is nothing but cross stitch supplies and I haven't even added my other crafty stuff yet.

Well it's 5:00 here and I still haven't had a shower yet today so better run because we have a dinner date with Donna and Morgan at 6:30.