Why do I do this to myself?

This applies to so many aspects of my life on so many levels but I'm really gonna just focus on these two:

Why do I watch semi scary movies/tv when Mark's out of town?  I'm watching Stephen King's Bag of Bones?  Do you know this movie?  Why did I think this was a good thing for me to watch? I'm such a believer in ghosts and hauntings that I won't sleep a wink for the next few days.  I think I'll have to take a whole sleeping pill instead of a half for the next few days.  Last week when he was gone, I watched some devil possession movie with Renee Zellweger called Case 39 which scared the beejeevies out of me.

Why do I start new crime novels while he's away?  Yep, I fall asleep every night reading my kindle and I so love my crime novels that I end up staying up way to late.  I take my sleeping pill then read for hours and don't remember a word of it the next day so at breakfast I re-read the same chapters. Not to mention that I also scare myself with reading these books.

Now I'm not a scared person by nature and I'm really used to being on my own but sometimes I just really miss my guy.   I've been playing with blogger layouts today and trying to add some new graphics and tabs.  Sure hope I got things worked out because I've been playing around with it all freaking day.